“Be Still My Soul” was written during one of the most difficult seasons of my life. Within weeks of a major separation, my world had been turned upside down. Languishing in a domestic abuse refuge. I found myself facing profound loss, misunderstanding and a deep sense of isolation. Much of what I had relied upon for stability and support seemed to disappear almost overnight, and I was left trying to make sense of circumstances that felt both painful and profoundly unfair.

I reached out for help by those I should have been able to trust for guidance, but there were moments when I felt very much alone. The following bible verse kept resurfacing as my cry.

“I say this to shame you. Is it possible that there is nobody among you wise enough to judge a dispute between believers?”
— 1 Corinthians 6:5

The truth is, I know my God is bigger than all of my pain. But it hurt beyond what words could describe. I remember in that moment refusing to turn my face from the pain. I thought if God is what I believe, then im facing every second of this pain. Inviting in to burn as hot as it could. Fully surrendered to it. im going to let it have its way. But I refuse to stumble. I refuse to let go of my faith. 

One day I was sitting on my doorstep, overwhelmed by the weight of everything that had happened. My mind was full of noise, the questions, the hurt, the confusion, and the sense of injustice. I turned to the Bible, searching for comfort and for the promises of God. I prayed and read the Scriptures, but inwardly the turmoil continued.

Then I heard a whisper:- “You have all authority in Christ Jesus to command your soul ‘Be Still!'”
So I did. In that moment, everything went quiet.

The circumstances around me had not changed, but internally I encountered a profound stillness and the peace of God. He began to reveal his graciousness in a way id never known to such depths.

God had me the whole time. I couldn’t help but praise him in this moment. Writing this song carried me through many months and still does today. It’s been such a joy seeing it bless other people experiencing such difficult times. Its amazing how God can turn the most painful moments in our lives, into tremendous blessings.

“Be still, and know that I am God.” – Psalm 46:10
“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” – Exodus 14:14